Being reminded that grades are not everything is not a pleasant way to leave school - and yet here I am trying to find meaning in that very notion. Somehow I don't feel validated for the work that I have put in, but what's past is past. Tonight I shall beat my chest a few more times and let out a few more primal screams, in the hopes that some Mayan enchantment will befall me and drive away the evil spirits.
In all seriousness, I just got back from 3 days of solitude in Washington DC. Again, not exactly the break between school and work that I have been dreaming about, but you have to learn to play with the cards that you're dealt.
To channel my frustration, I shall post this short clip of what I witnessed while watching the Spurs-Wizards beatdown at the Verizon Center:
Very empowering stuff. It just reminds that no matter how desperate we might feel at times, we are never quite at the bottom of the food chain. At the same time, it promotes a 95% accurate racial stereotype that Asians can't dance.
I'm just rambling on and on here because I am trying to distract myself from thoughts - thoughts about why we celebrate our human selfishness so much, about why we are so entangled and so deeply entrenched in a culture that judges you based on fleeting perceptions. Why is it so easy to be outwardly judgmental yet inwardly indifferent? I am starting to believe that the greatest crime in this world is not hatred, but indifference. Hatred is passion incited against ignorance, to awaken people's minds. Not that I condone it, but it's better than people who just sit around and choose to look away and walk on.
Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts.
Being content is not the same as indifference - indifference is ignorance, contentment is an active choice to accept a circumstance.
I choose to be content. This too shall pass.
UPDATE: this video made me crack up a smile, and shames the Chinese dude up there. Enjoy.
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